Saturday, February 11, 2012

Feeling Like I Wanna Rip Shit Up...

Home renovations seem to go slower than I would like them to.  At times, waiting for the funds to get what we would like to get done, is difficult and frustration.  I know that I need to remind myself that all of the home renovations cannot be done at once or as quickly as I would like.  These kind of things cost money, and we aren't able to afford everything at this time.  

Patience really is a virtue.  One of those things that I really need to work on.  

However, putting patience aside, there's something therapeutic about taking a hammer (and the occasional karate kick) to a disaster-DIY false wall to open up the basement.  Taking on this wall, reminds me that all things will come in time and that I can do whatever I set my mind to. 

Now, I know my mom and dad are probably reading this, thinking "thank goodness this burst of destruction didn't come while she was living under our roof".  In the next few weeks, I'll be taking down a few more false walls and move some of major appliances... The rest of the home renovations will come in time.

Note: The first picture continues to make me giggle.  

A Reflection on this Post:
The last week I have been coming out of a "down period" and have been feeling strong urges to change things.  It's sometimes hard to know what needs to be changed and what should be left alone.  I have taken some advice and edited the people I follow for my blog and twitter account, deleting those who I find to be either triggering for my E.D. thoughts or not supportive.  In work, I have been taking time to reflect on how I would like to present myself and what is important to focus my time and energy on.  At home, I'm planning for the upcoming renovations and working with Chris on what is realist of the near future.  Finally, for myself, I have been trying to fill my head with positive self talk... recognizing when I start to criticize myself and taking the effort to change that thinking.


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I'm that way too - I usually want to change a bunch of things all at once. The itching to change your house could be symbolic of the inner changes you are trying to make that are also occurring more gradually than you might like. God, I sound like a horoscope. But I have heard that when you want to redecorate, it could represent something else in your life you're trying or hoping to change. Or maybe it's not that deep-seated. Maybe we just get bored and want to stir things up!

In any case, I love that you're removing more and more triggers and paying attention to the negative self-talk so you can turn it around before it spirals.

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